chroniclez 4a

Assalammualaikum.. had you even noticed that recently all my entry is using english?? its good if you had noticed it.. well.. ermmm.. actually I only used english when I'm not in a good mood.. because I think english have unique language.. its make something looks soft even you are writing with anger.. even if I'm with my bff.. and I'm started using English.. she will know.. there's something wrong somewhere.. is it right my bff?? heeee.. but to continue writing entry in English.. its actually hard.. cause sometime..  I couldnt know the term used in English.. hahhaa.. maybe I could use inverted comma.. its just my little brother's blog.. make me realize.. even he is now only 18 years old.. can write English in his blog.. why not me.. then... I started using English in my entry.. I dont know how readers perception.. but what I know.. I'm comfortable with it.. if you feel.. its hard for you.. n...

Assalammualaikum.... feel like this whole week.. want to update by using english.. dont ask why... in this life.. we are not looking for someone perfect.. and someone match to us.. but just someone that could make we perfect.. and does not need to adjust yourself.. to impress others.. that will not impressing other.. but make others feel annoyed.. JUST BE YOURSELF.. because it is yourself that make someone like you.. not by pretending.. and do the things that someone you like do.. just be yourself.. do I really need to make you clear about this... JUST BE YOURSELF.. and you really2 make me fell annoying!!!!! i feel sick everytime you wanna do things i do.. and you does not need do anything to IMPRESS me.. just let the time be.. and whatever you do now.. really really make me SICK!! i really want to end this semester as fast as i can.. and go vacation.. releasing all the tense you bought..

this few days back.. many things happened.. many things appeared.. yeah.. yeah.. Alhamdulillah.. already cope with that.. at the end.. decided drop the subject.. but i dont know until when it will be drop.. even i already let you know.. but i want you to know again and again and again.. personally i valued you at most.. there is no turning back for what i valued.. and this bonding is something precious for me.. as you know.. i dont want to lose it.. the bonding that tied up.. is fated.. even i dont realize on it.. and it is just happened.. as time goes by.. many things we've gone through.. many memories that we've created.. and we do learn accept each other.. all the kindness of you.. all the weakness of you.. now and forever.. you are the special gift.. that i surely keep for ever and ever.. with all my heart.. its for you.. and you also...

its happening.. never thought its happening.. and i dont know whether i am good friend for you.. but.. really not a good friend rite.. not telling you what is happening.. just... im not hiding anything from you.. im trying to find a time to tell you.. but... its really to late.. you already knew it from others.. and it hurts you, rite.. sorry for that.. i know.. im not a good friend for you.. i just want you to know.. im not trying hiding anything from you.. because you are very close with me.. and you have the right to know.. i just want to find a suitable time for it.. do forgive me on it..

i found a video with lovely song and lyrics.. dedicated to my friends..  specially my best friend.. song by bruno mars.. tittle count on me.. quite slow song but its lovely song.. If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea, I'll sail the world to find you If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see, I'll be the light to guide you Find out what we're made of What we are called to help our friends in need You can count on me like 1 2 3 I'll be there And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4 3 2 And you'll be there Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah That's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah You can count on me cause I can count on you If you toss and you turn and you just can't fall asleep I'll sing a song beside you And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me Everyday I will remind you Find out what we're made of What we are called to help o...

yeahhh.. akhirnya setelah 5hari aku berkepit buku ini, akhirnya aku berjaya jugak menghabiskan baca buku ini.. err.. lamanya.. mana taknya, baca bila nak tido jek.. hehe.. pastu mula lah apa yang aku baca tuh masuk dalam mimpi.. adoi3.. gila betul.. sekarang neh aku baca buat terer jek.. hehe.. tak paham sesetengah word, aci men redah jek aku.. malas nak buka kamus.. agak2 bila word tuh asyik berulang jek baru aku buka kamus.. hehe.. dan ada baki 2 lagi.. huhu..

aku sudah pon selesai pembacaan percy jackson and sea of monster.. dan aku menantikan pula ianya diadaptasikan dalam bentuk wayang plak.. entah bila lah nak direleasekan.. kalau tak silap tahun 2012.. xpalah.. lambat lagi.. aksi pengembaraan yang digarapkan cukup menarik.. percy jackson.. seorang manusia yang lahir hasil campuran manusia biasa dan God.. kiranya dia mempunyai kuasa.. kali neh pengambaraannya menyelamatkan Grover, sejenis Styr dan juga merupakan kawan baikknya.. pengembaraanya kali ini melalui laut.. yang sudah semestinya memberikan kelebihan padanya.. selain menyelamatkan kawannya.. dia juga berjaya membantu kawannya, clarrise mennyelesaikan misi yang diberikan untuk menyelamatkan kem mereka..      dan kali ini aku meneruskan perjuangan untuk sekual yang ketiga..

disebabkan aku mendapat penghormatan untuk bercuti lebih awal daripada student UTM yang lain.. hehe.. maka, kebosanan cepat terserlah.. hahaha.. iyelah.. dok rumah bukannya wat apa.. goyang kaki.. sehabis goyang tuh.. hehehe.. anyway, cuti neh aku berpeluang untuk membaca satu buku.. yeahh.. buat julung2 kalinya dan buat pertama kalinya aku membaca novel english.. erkkk.. selama neh layan novel cinta Melayu jek.. otak dah tak leh nak proses dah.. so, aku beralih angin kejap.. disebabkan adik aku mengumpul buku siri percy jackson.. aku pon menumpanglah.. hahha.. siri yang pertama.. 'percy jackson & lightning thief'.. aku baca yang versi UK.. aku pon tak sure lah apa bezanya dengan versi US.. benggong tul kan aku neh.. hehe.. dan buku yang neh dah diadaptasi kan dalam wayang.. aku pon dah pernah tengok.. pa yang aku boleh cakap.. jangan samakan yang wayang punya dengan buku punya.. lain beb!! silap haribulan, kalau tengok balik cita tuh, aku plak yang pening.. idea asal...

i know.. im being cold with you for this couple days.. i really dont know who is wrong.. maybe its me that being too emo with you.. im very sorry for worrying you this days.. i dnt know why few days later its easy for me to be hurt by you.. so many things that i dont have the explanation.. things happened.. but you just assume nothings happened.. never mind.. what is past, is still a past.. what happened today, wont change what already happened.. i just feel like,  you dont care anymore.. its fine with me.. i know, maybe you are buzy.. that make you less care.. i know too.. you have your own life to handle with.. i just could pray that everything will be alright.. and i promise to be more strong in the future..

is it im the one not strong enough?? or is it im the one is too weak.. its been twice.. but a HURT is still a HURT.. and it feels same.. or maybe it hurts more.. i know.. the time is come.. time for change.. it will not be same for ever and ever.. but still.. im the one that hurts.. wondering if you know it.. wondering if you feel it.. wondering if you realize it.. nothing much i expect in this situation.. trying to be more positive.. trying to be more realistic.. trying to be more understanding.. and what is more important.. i will not blame you for what is happening.. just give some time to accept it.. give some time to dry the tears.. give some time to feel free with the situation.. hoping that there will no end what we had started..

yesterday.. yesterday is the past.. witness of what had happened.. creates all the happy and sad memory.. yesterday where leads for today.. is where the yesterday everything starts.. today.. today everything changed.. that will never be same as yesterday.. whether more beautiful or more gloomy.. and today also is more hurting than yesterday.. today that used to be more tougher than yesterday.. and today that leads for tomorrow.. tomorrow.. tomorrow is the future that no one know.. tomorrow is something that everyone hopes to be more brighter than today.. yesterday, today and tomorrow is things that related.. things may changes due of time.. and never be same.. be tough to face it..

never thought it happened.. but its happened.. really need to cope the situation.. because it is not supposed to be like that.. just give some times.. just give some spaces.. really need to breath.. i'll try my best to cope.. i'll try my best to give what i can give..

all this time... i thought everything is okey.. i thought everything is smooth.. and i thought there is nothing is happening.. ...BUT...  im tottaly wrong.. it is not okey.. it is not smooth.. and there is something.. i dont know where is the fire.. i dont know whose fault is it.. i dont know.. i dont know.. and i dont know.. because its just starts.. MAYBE.. its me, less paying attention.. its me, less care.. its me, too buzy..  and ITS ME.. if not.. there's not statement saying that i'm changed.. dear you.... really sorry if there is any mistakes i do.. really sorry if im hurting you.. really sorry for forgeting you.. really sorry for less care for you.. really sorry for too buzy and no time for you.. really sorry for not there for you when you needed.. really sorry.. sorry and sorry.. if you thinks that way.. but instead.. i really care for you.. im not forgeting you.. i dont want to hurt you.. i want be there for you.. but sometimes..  i failed.. do forg...

hurmmm.. minggu terakhir kelas nehlah banyak sangat dugaan.. ntahlah.. keja last minit?? hurmmm.. isnin baru2 neh ada presentation teknologi.. yang amazingnya, hari ahad bru nak buat.. from zero plak tuh.. dari zohor sampai lah isnin pagi..GILA!! aku hanya tido lepas subuh.. kawan aku yang lain plak kul 4 lebih dah tido.. tapi, lepas subuh deorang sambung balek keja.. groupku yang hebat.. nak dijadikan cerita, slide power point hilang gara2 laptop wat hal.. huhuhu.. kul 2 pagi.. dah nak siap dengan animation semua.. SEDIH GILA aku.. huhuhu.. salwa tolong coverkan aku.. hakikatnya, dia tengah pulun tuk siapkan lab math dia.. so, sorry salwa.. rasa bersalah gila.. huhu.. najua pon sama.. sorry.. sebab masing2 tido tak lama.. huhuhu.. MY MISTAKE... malam isnin plak bertungkus lumus siapakan model.. dah siap awal dah.. just nak touch up.. betulkan yang mana xberapa betul.. kul 12 lebih tido.. ok lahh.. malam selasa plak, bertungkus lumus gila siapakn BI.. mencari references yang tak ...

well..... looks like the 4weeks holiday is finally finished.. and the class will start begin this Monday.. i just cant believe it is over.. however, as long as a student the duty must keep on.. hopefully, for this new sem i can reached back what i missed already.. my mom already nagging to me.. huhu.. and i very hope i can get focused back.. and there is some goals that i need to achieve for this new sem.. 1... no more clothes, dress to buy! 2... get back the dean list 3... don't be too buzy and manage your time wisely 4... manage your money wisely.. dont spend to what is no need! 5... singapore trip (hopefully we all can go by this sem) well.. i think it is not too much.. and i think i can do it.. just belief in myself! chaiyok2!

last night was the day.. you like it or not.. you have to.. till when i want to keep running.. its the day that the result is posted.. OMG!! what i do is take a deep breath and open up the 'aimsweb'.. and think possitively.. huhu.. jeng.. jeng.. jeng.. and the result is......... my pointer drop again.. i knew it already.. i already give my best on my final.. and looks like it doesnt help.. there is C!! oh no.. that is what im avoiding of.. but i still get it.. huhu.. well, dont blame other.. blame yourself.. and till now i keep it as secret.. haha!! dont want to hear my mom nagging.. just let them receive the letter from univercity.. i just sign out my fbook, my ym and closed the laptop.. my mood gone already.. just laid up on my bed and mesagging my best friend.. im not so depressed because i already made up my mind before that and really prepared.. but i just need someone.. hehe.. she told me to learn from my mistakes.. and i admit it.. and i was thinking and scolded myself....

finally.. today is da final day after 1sem struggling.. i already finished my exam.. yeahhh.. but... i dnt think so i can score 3.5.. 3 pointer?? hurmm.. i really dnt know.. its very hard.. most of da paper i dnt cnfident 2 answer.. wat i read, wat i remember cames out.. but, i forget it when see da question.. i really feel bad bout it.. and i really hope dat pointer will above 3.. however my carry marks also very bad.. all da carry marks was announced on da stdy week.. i already almost give up wif all dis.. lucky i hv smone dat had push up bck myself.. and mke me recover bck and i begin to push up myself to stdy.. bt i knw, how though im stdy on, i will never get da bez result.. i really dnt know how i cn be like dis?? am i too buzy?? huhuhu.. i admit smtyme i dnt hv time to prepare 4 my test.. but most of it i already spent tyme to it.. really dnt know what 2 say.. i hv 2 spent 2 more days here.. i will be back at thursday.. thngs came out and da plan going to gunung ledang had 2 ca...

being care by someone and taking care of someone.. its good being care by someone but its tough to take care of someone.. taking care of someone really need a high patience.. but its really hurt when the person we really care just ignore what we really care.. its all for their sake.. not to deny their right.. but why they didn't realize of it.. we do for nothing to take care of them.. just hope they get a better and a happy life.. but remember.. dont regret one day if somenthing had happened just because you dont care what we care of.. all we do just because L.O.V.E..

once we are friend.. forever we are friend.. same goes if we are best friend.. and forever we are best friend.. not every friend can be our best friend.. only those special can be best friend.. once we are are best friend.. all your happiness and sadness are mine.. and there is no such term as your problem burden me.. why you may ask.. its because we are best friend and I dont want to see you in a sad mood.. maybe today is your day.. and i will help you as much as I can.. who knows one day is mine.. Im sure you will do the best for it.. what used of best friend if you have problem, you keep it silence.. best friend is someone stand beside you no matter what happened.. your silence may be hurt your best friend.. you never knew it.. a best friend could cry over you.. even a small thing happened between us.. why you may ask.. it is because it hurts them very much and a best friend would never want to lose their best friend.. best friend never count on what they had spent on.. money, prese...

hurmm.. sometimes, i really dont understand what people trying to do.. whether i dont understand or i dont want to understand.. let me be myself.. i know what i want to achieve.. by the way, thanks for advising me.. maybe i cant open my heart yet.. its need time.. but i know its only me that i dont want to open my heart to others.. i think this is not the good time for it.. i know something bad will happen if i do it.. or that is just my assumption.. in this world, we need someone to trust on and somone to lay on.. but, i need someone to give support to me.. wether what im doing is good or not.. maybe im not quite enough experience in that things, that doesnt mean i dont know anything.. please give me a space.. i know already that what im doing its wrong.. but please dont judge me like that.. its good to know that someone support what im doing.. but others?? even those close with me dont agree with what im doing.. i know i keep denying on something.. because i know it is not the time y...